Poker post.

I swear to god the last two weeks have been so brutal it hurts. I never really listen to people when they talk about massive downswings and running bad etc, but good god. I am in the utter shit at the moment. I have failed to win a single race/flip or hold @ 500nl in about 2 weeks. I have logged a total of 3 winning days in that entire period. Im having enormous confidence issues, tilting like a mother fucker and generally hating life. The problem is im not really doing anything wrong. I mean sure iv probably tilted off like 5-8 buyins with spew. But the rest has just been a fucking joke. This one idiot on betfair (i wont out him) plays the most retarded stlye i ever fucking saw and seems to get the lot daily. His fold to 3b% is 28%. He 3b jams 100bb over a standard open b v b w AJo. Mind i guess his play is fairly standard when either flops a straight every other hand or else binks whatever ridiculous card he needs to get there. It makes me cringe to see him getting the absolute lot when right now i NEED the money pretty badly. Im not one of these poker guys thats had some sick mtt results to set them up financially, i dont make the tens of thousands every other poker player seems to make it quite frankly i feel sick. Last week i was close to crying myself to sleep. I know its just variance bla bla bla but right now i cant see the fucking wood for the trees, doubt every single decision i make and tilt like a baboon when some idiot luckbox from sweden decides to checkraise allin in a 3b pot w 99 on 1024cc for 250bb v 444 and get there. seriously. Please dear god i dont want a 10bb/100 winrate but let me regress to the mean.